. I want to be a good person. I wish I were a good person. But I cannot be a good person. How can I still be a good person when I want to harm those who harm others? How can I ever be a good person when the idea of harming those who victimize others makes me smile and drool a little. How can I be a good person, no matter how hard I long to be... ...If I am, exactly, the same sort of rage-forged toxic dagger as those evil people... ...But just with the blade turned toward the other direction... . Any mere animal thug with a bat can bring vengeance... ... But only a good person can bring healing and redemption. . I wish I were a good person. But no one can be this angry all the time and honestly ever call themselves a good person. . And this fact upsets me. . . Letting yourself give in to violence It is just like a kind of immature emotional masturbation. It makes you feel good for a short while Sad for a much longer while. It is addictive. Makes a sticky mess everywhere. You find You al

- I deeply admire the few REAL pacifists,   But I loathe all the FAKE pacifists! - You cannot be stranded on a desert island starving to death and claim to be on a diet. It is just an excuse for your lack of food. - only a person in front of an all-you-can-eat buffet can deny themself food and say they are on a diet. - This is the same reason the cowardly and weak cannot be real pacifists... It is just an excuse for their lack of action. - only a person who has the psychological and physical capability to be violent can be a REAL pacifist! Because they have a genuine real choice available, And yet, despite all reason and provocation - Still consciously Choose a path of peace, pacifism and 'turning the other cheek' at all times! - I deeply admire REAL pacifists and wish I had the true inner strength needed to be one of them! -