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A Pathetic Justice Warriors Guide To Self loathing!

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A Pathetic Justice Warriors Guide 
To Self loathing! 
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I am not well.
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I do not do my little crappy justice warrior stuff from some middle-class perspective to gain some fucking cache over posh cheese and wine!
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I can barely sleep without getting horrible vivid nightmares of Holocaust visions and the imagined smell of corpse rot and burning flesh.
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I cannot remember the last time I ever slept well.
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I am always exhausted and upset and enraged.
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I try so hard despite having dyslexia to try and make some tiny butterfly effect difference with the only tool I have, the keyboard.
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I will wake after only 3-5 hours sleep with some idea that I have to get down or research only to find out that I spelt “Label” as “Lable” or “Does” as “Dose”,
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Or some other stupid fucked up dyslexic typo.
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And because I am Dyslexia, no amount of reading through carefully or use of spell checks are adequate.
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Of course, being dreadfully overtired all the time does not help!
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And because my struggle to try and be a little help to the world just makes me look like an idiot,
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I then feel I have failed and that I have let the screaming victims I will dream of that night down!
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I don’t know whether I should,
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1) 
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Physically blind myself with some chemical so I can not see to write anymore,
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2) 
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Give into my rage and kill a load of right-wing fuckers with poison,
And Spend eternity in hell.
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I do not know how much will power I have left,
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It must be a finite resource!
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I do know I cannot keep going on like this!
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My rage is slowly killing me!
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Can anyone or anything out there help me!
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I am starting to get really desperate!
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Whatever your faith please pray for me to get some more strength, 

From somewhere!
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I am a total nut job!
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I try never to leave the house for the sake of other people safety!
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Apparently,
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Due to budget cuts,
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It is not enough in the UK to turn up at a police station openly in fits of tears of rage because you are haunted by what you might end up doing to someone!
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You have to actually hurt someone first!
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I am not a Dr with a medical degree,
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(I am only merely trapped living in this fucked up head,)
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So apparently I am not qualified enough to access myself as a risk to the public.
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Committing someone for life to an asylum (possibly for life) is expensive!
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So I am left to try and deal with it all myself!
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Best tactic left available is to try and bate a worse nut job!
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One who is not trying to resist who they are and who enjoys hurting people into murdering me,
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So they get put away for life!
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Thus killing to birds with one stone.
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THE HYPOTHETICAL NIGHTMARE 'FUTURE' VERSION OF ME
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“IF” I fell from my own personal grace and started to kill people.
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I will NOT start a fight in a pub.
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If I want to kill someone in a pub,
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I would wait for a night when it is close to below freezing outside,
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Buy my target a load of drinks and be their “Best friend”,
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Help them stagger home and try and offer to hold their coat.
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Try and direct them to an ally or unseen spot.
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And let them collapse in a wet puddle or in some deep snow.
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Then just walk away and let the cold take them!
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Even with CTV cameras, I have so much plausible deniability that in any legal defence, that I will very likely get away with it!
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(I will hopefully, never "do this" now because I have put my plans online!)
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(This protects ‘present me’ from a ‘potential future me’, and hopefully stops a ‘potential future me’ doing this!)
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I would NOT charge into a crowd wielding an axe,
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I would use poison,
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Nothing that makes the victim just looks asleep,
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Something visual.
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With fits, foaming mouth, and burst blood vessels.
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I would avoid Arsenic of Lithium if I could,
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But I would look at all the compounds between atomic numbers 3 to 33.
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Because they all seem to be the most easily absorbed and hardest to purge!
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(Although I am not a chemist and allot more reading would be needed!)
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(Note to self: FORBIDDEN RESEARCH!)
(DO NOT DO THIS READING!)
(DO NOT EVEN LIE TO YOURSELF, SAYING!)
(“IT IS ONLY FOR RESEARCH!”)
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Something that is easy to diagnose and treat but would leave “survivors” with a severely diminished quality of life!
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(Because merely killing someone and destroying someone is NOT the same thing!)
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A “Dead” person is just a lump of meat,
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A “Destroyed” person will continue your legacy of pain and destruction!
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It might even be the start of a never-ending chain that lasts long after you have been forgotten!

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Violence is not Clever or Glamorous
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It just is.
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Serial killers and Mass Murderers are NOT and NEVER will be heroes! 
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They are self-deluded and do not realise what they "really are" and what little that "means"!
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I am not so self-deluded, 

I know that if I killed that I would NOT be some dark misunderstood hero of my own tragic story!
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Just like all other Serial killers and Mass murderers,
I would only be a pathetic weak-willed loser!
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I know exactly what I would "really be" and how little that "meant"!
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Violence is dirty and shit!
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I am not scared of getting. killed, or even dying,
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(A little nervous maybe But NOT scared!)
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I am not scared of Prison for that same reason.
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But I am religious,
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I am scared of hell.
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That faith is what stops me becoming the
"THE HYPOTHETICAL NIGHTMARE 'FUTURE' VERSION OF ME!" 

mentioned above!
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It also what takes "Suicide" off the table as a possible solution!

(Out of all Gods laws, this is the one that upsets me the most and that seems the most unfair!)
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I feel like a man with an upset stomach desperate for a crap!
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Stuck on a bus hoping to get home in time

Before I crap my pant and humiliate myself!
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I have such painful severe stomach cramps now that I often consider just letting go, 

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The fear of "the shame " is bothering me less and less compared to my immediate discomfort!
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I can imagine the deep sense of relief and my bowl void themselves!
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Almost like a type of orgasm!
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But instead of held in shit,
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Imagine holding in violence!
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Instead of reaching the toilet, 

You are just trying to get to the end of your life without hurting anyone!
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Instead of shame, 

It is the fear of hell and damnation is bothering me less and less compared to my immediate discomfort!
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I know that if I killed,
I would feel a great sense of relief of finally having "let go"!
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But sooner or later I would "Need" to do it again! 
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It would be "addictive"!
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That is why there must Never be a "First Time"!
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I WONDER?!
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I wonder if this hypothetical potential future me would sleep much better and stops having the Daymares Terrors that I have!
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Because they ‘gave in’ and let themselves be absorbed by the violence inside instead of constantly fighting it!
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I wonder if they would know peace?
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Friedrich Nietzsche Was an Idiot!
(So was Niccolò Machiavelli)

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Empathy is the Real, strength power!
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Not ruthlessness.
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Ruthlessness is the weakness.
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Mortality is not a limiting cage,
But instead, gives a sense of purpose and meaning!
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As a species,  we evolved social skills and ability to act as a group that far surpasses all other self-aware species!
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The bones of this mental tool kit are Empathy!
(Which should be taught more as a skill in schools!)
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Empathy is NOT just a wishy-washy fluffy idea,
It is an ability to visualise, plan and manage a group dynamic!
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It is a vital part of team building!
(In the face of pending human-environmental extinction, we are desperately going to need super-effective "Teamwork")
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The reason you lot out there do not give these things their proper value, is because you seem to have it endlessly on tap and take it for granted!
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As a "Nut Job" looking in at your warm Christmas Feast of Empathy from the snow-encrusted window out in the cold,
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I can see most people do not realise how lucky they are!
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I see dipshit (mostly Men) cling and bark and brag about how "Hard" they are and feeding delusional egos with the poisonous idea that an ability to be Violent is somehow a good thing!
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And I cannot correct them because that would be like trying to explain Nuclear Physics to a Squirrel!
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They would see it as some weird arse counter brag or participation in their fucked up pissing competition!
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All of you can feel joy compassion and love and hope in a way my screwed up brain never can!
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And I feel jealous of you all!
Why else did you think people like me enjoy hurting people like you!
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There is no such thing as a Nietzsche "Superman"!
Only fellow sad individuals living a half-life wishing they could feel the warmth and light you are taking for granted!
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And you seem to think the hidden monsters are lucky!
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You make "things" like Gangsters such as "Al Capone" or "The Krays", 
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Killers such as "Jeffrey Dahmer" or "Manson" into counter-culture heroes when you should be elevating people like,
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Dr Martin Luther King
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Mohandas Gandhi.

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How stupid can you lot possibly be!
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Hold, love, and Care for each other,
Let go of all the Hate and the stupid barriers you put, 
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Race, Gender, Faith, Football Teams and all the other crap that never really mattered that you hold between yourselves!
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Not just because it is the right thing to do!
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DO it because YOU CAN.
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Do it because others CAN NOT!
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