. But wait! Being a 'bit of a shit' is a game Everyone can play! Not just men! It only happens VERY rarely, But once in a blue moon a woman can be shockingly nasty - IF rejected! . By Ross E F Lombardi . I am pretty dam vocal about my criticism of my own gender, And how I fully understand - that men are largely the "Bad Guys". . But wait! Being a 'bit of a shit' is a game Everyone can play! Not just men! . It only happens VERY rarely, But once in a blue moon a woman can be shockingly nasty to! . And usually this sort of behaviour is restricted to a certain minority of conventionally "attractive women". . Some Attractive women. Not all, Only those Who hang Their entire identity on thier looks. Are horrendous when you reject them! . Not just a bit, but really, Really, REALLY epicly Totally nut job, psychoticly horrendous! - They just can not psychologically cope with an average-looking single man rejecting them. (Largely because most men are dogs and...

. Is a trans person using the same public toilet as me? ? Why the hell should I care either way?! - I'm there to piss and crap not flirt and get a date? Just let people use the toilet and get back to their drink, meal or the dance floor or whatever! As long as they leave the seat dry, bog flushed and enough toilet paper left - So, apart from that, Why the hell would I care?! . - - The only real Weidos are the strange ones who think there is anything sexy or alluring about a place you go to go to have a shit! . - This says so much about the stupid god-slaves lot, that they even think like that!! - Silly repressed bastards! . "OI! - You Weirdos!" - "Get Out OF The Dam Church!" "- And Get An Actual Life!" "You Stupid Fucking Religious Losers!" "Your Magic Invisible Sky Pixie Friend - DOES NOT CARE ABOUT HOW PEOPLE HAVE A SHIT!" . But wait?! . "Oh" "But I am scared of being rapped by some 'woman' in the men's ...

! That terrible wave of loneliness that hits you, Out of nowhere, during a Social Event! Like a cold sledgehammer made of ice hitting your chest! ! THIS! THIS! THIS! This is why I disappear back home early during a night out, party, or an event. Ignoring all previous plans! I know it's irrational IT IS NO ONE'S FAULT! I know it is just in my head! But it just being in my head does Not stop it feeling real enough to me - Horribly real - Real enough to make me scurry back home to hide! THIS is why it is getting ever harder and harder to leave the flat and try to be part of the world! This is why I am joining in less and less! This is why I push people away. ! You cannot be abandoned again - If you abandon Them first! You cannot be "given up on" - If you "give up" on Them first! You cannot be rejected - If you reject Them first! They cannot break Your heart if you do not let yourself need Them! The world cannot hurt you if you do not let it in! ! I am far less ...

. I am not totally locked down on this... ...But... . I am starting to consider the possibility that - - ( due to my personal circumstances, for example, both my mental health and low financial situation, ) - - That it might actually be morally wrong for me to 'like' anyone romantically. And that for me, the only moral and correct thing to do is to never let myself feel that way, or act upon any such feeling, ever again. - . - I might be 'bad' for anyone who 'loves' me, and therefore I have an ethical obligation to not allow 'me', as an unhealthy romantic partner, to happen to anyone. I might be too far gone and far too damaged now to be 'good' for anyone. I might be too ruined now. Maybe the man I need to protect all women from dating most - is "me"?! . Maybe that is the main justification for my celibacy trial run experiment - and a main justification to opt out of any romantic situations permanently for good? maybe, This IS the most ...

. Let’s be honest about a certain type of older single man – The broke ones! . By Ross E F Lombardi . . I am male, over 50, broke — and forever single… . While it is true that many people are happy being single. I am not one of them. It is not who I am. . Most can be single and happy, However, while this may be true for most. Others were meant to spend their lives married. It is just who they are. Some, maybe a minority, but still some, including me, were meant to be part of something more than just themselves. Some are in their bones meant to live and try to be successful for someone else. Just because you like being single (lucky you) does Not make your truth transferable. You are not me,  - or like me. Just because you are not like me. Does not make it still true in my case. - For me, Ambition has no meaning if Success cannot be shared with a life partner to love. - Who am I trying for? I alone am Not enough reason. - That is my singular personal truth. I need someone to succeed a...

. Dear entire world For your reference: I won't let myself need anyone ever again. . If you decide to stop talking to me, At any time, for any reason, Just politely let me know and I will happily and politely comply and get on with my life without you. It would be a pity, But I'd get past it surprisingly quickly. . Being lonely sucks, true - BUT Nothing is worse than letting yourself 'Be Owned' by anyone. Chasing after anyone's 'Favour' or to "be liked' Letting anyone passively control my actions, I'd rather stay isolated and alone than go through that humiliation again! - I will simply will NOT put myself through that sort of pain again! - . I like friends and people, but I will not let myself need them! I'd rather be forever lonely and free - - Than be "popular", "liked" and "controlled" by others! I'd rather walk away and never look back, - Than bend to the will of another person. - Do Not mistake me for ...

. I have a little issue of being a straight man that finds it hard not to feel bigoted against other straight men.... Causing an irrational logic loop within me of self-hatred. (This was caused by a 'genetic father' beating mom thang.... and seeing many other big scary, hairy, macho men harming people when I was just a child) - Yes, I know it's stupid of me - but the main defining point of mental illness is irrationality!) - This is not a unique pathology... In my research on trying to navigate this issue, I have come across other similar but different cases - Such as, for example, people hating themselves due to their own ethnicity and skin colour. Or women hating themselves and other women for being female. Including once case of a young Jewish man becoming a violent nazi antisemite. . I have not found a "cure" for myself yet, for my irrational hate of my own sexuality and gender, and myself because of it - but I am working on it.  .