. My nightmares. . - I have been the mother being assaulted in front of her child. . - The child discovered, hiding terrified in the closet. . - The attacker, with a gun, is placed in my mouth, and the trigger is pulled . I've been shot, stabbed, sliced, hit the ground from a great height. . I've been in loads of heads, both innocent and evil as they die. . I know for a fact that you can die in your dreams and not die in real life! I've died a hundred different ways in thousands of dreams. . I vividly felt terror, pain, and tasted blood. And then have to negotiate the first two hours that morning, remembering that they are 'only dreams'. . I tried being religious. To pray whatever the hell this crap is away. And in similar dreams, more than once, god said "no". So after decades of this, how am I supposed to somehow not hate god's sadistic arse! . They started before puberty. Way back then, I fancied becoming a Catholic priest. I did nothing to deserv...

. If my ex-wife were on fire... . ...Why is this somehow my problem? . She wanted a world without me in it, so she gets a world without me in it. . I refuse to ever harm her - But I also refuse to ever help her. . I do nothing. Not my problem. . The same applies if anyone tries to kidnap her Or if she is suffering from a heart attack . As far as I am concerned. I no longer exist for her. In any capacity, good or bad. . And before you judge... ... actually, I don't give a flying dam; judge away if you want. I don't care. She caused me far too much pain. My stance won't change. .

. I wanted to reveal one of the most common reasons for my most dangerous depressions. . I dislike the far right. I support refugees and gay rights etc. . I'm committed to defending the persecuted worldwide, at any and all cost. . Most people know this about me already. . But this is the new bit. Because I am handicapped with a huge, weirdly put-together brain. . I can see the patterns. I can see all the most likely outcomes. The huge amounts of money involved. The power and influence behind it all. And The KEY part! The inevitable upcoming environmental collapse that is the real unacknowledged cause behind it all. . And despite my passion and commitment towards all that I see as good, I am almost certain of one thing. . We. The left. The empathetic. The caring. The merciful. We Are Going To Lose. . I don't realistically see how we can possibly win. . When the crops fail on mass. When the food stops. I can see current members of the left, good people, almost instantly switch si...

. I feel odd and 'out of place' at things. . It's no one's fault . It's not just there and them. I don't really belong anywhere. I never have. . I need to start accepting that. . I've tried for over 50 years It hurts to give up. But I'm allowed to stop trying to belong now. . It's clearly never going to happen. . Feeling forever homesick but never finding a home, is just who I am. .

. People keep thinking that they themselves consider all human life as sacred - when they actually do not. . They have not had a proper look at how their own pension pot investments grow! They could look, but they won't. That knowledge is a bit too inconvenient for them. They think that just because they can't smell the death and blood or hear the tears of those investments, they are somehow not still responsible for all that human suffering! . They don't really think human life is sacred. They never did. . Sure, they will scream "Stop the war" "Stop this or that genocide" "Feed the hungry" "Clean the ocean" "Heal the sick" They might even indulge in a bit of mild protesting. . But they won't sacrifice too much... Risk too much of their own future comfort. They will never openly admit it... ...But really - they don't mind a bit of injustice. . They just don't want to get their own precious hands dirty while they ...

. No one of any gender or sexuality, needs any reason to set any type of personal intimacy boundary . You do not have to justify what you do or don't feel comfortable doing or with whom . It does NOT have to make Any sense to you . Consent matters FOR EVERYONE! . . ...And This does also includes men who do not want to date trans women. . Sexual freedom means actual sexual freedom. In every direction, equally at once, with no shame attached! . By tying to shame men who don't want to date trans women - - you are inadvertently also undermining trans rights . Conditional freedom for only some - - Is in reality - - No freedom for anyone at all . You can not create true freedom and real equality for all - - By forging new types of chains and different types of inequality for others . A different type of cage is still a cage. You don't really free your mind - - by shoving your mind in a different style of cage. . Don't become just a mere clone  of your oppressor. .

. WELL THIS IS As dodgy as all hell! As posted on Facebook. . From Middlesbrough "patriots" . https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1LJt7qSbnh/ . From profile . https://www.facebook.com/share/1AzgYTg8pA/ . Quote : "Edit: Not all hmos house illegals some will be for our homeless, like the ones near Albert park. I do not encourage any violence I've posted this for awareness and to help work out which ones are for our homeless. I will be putting out a list of illegals hmos very soon. Even then I don't encourage violence. We can email owners and complain All the hmos in middlesbrough with 5 or more occupants" End quote: . He then lists 236 addresses. Over roughly 59 streets. . At over 5 fellow human beings per address. That's over 1179 men, women and children. Individuals with lives, hopes, dreams and feelings. . If I find out who he is I think an appropriate response would be for me to list His address on all online social media. . I'm not encouraging violen...