. Boy: "Dad?" "What are these?" . Man: "These?" "These are what are called Weapons" "From a time when people used to hurt each other" . Boy: "Yes, I was told about that" "People killed and harmed each other... " . Man: "Yes, but what you may not know yet," "Is that people enjoyed it!" "Or at least, they believed that they did" . Boy: "What?" . Man: "It's true" "Kids were taught violence was fun from an early age" "Through fictitious shows and toys" "Through music and indoctrination, boys were told that harming people was a good thing" "- That is what made them Men" "Except it wasn't quite so simple," "They were told it was bad and that it was good at the same time" . Boy: "Sounds confusing" . Man: "It was meant to be confusing" "You see, the powerful at the time wanted to stop...

. Three new websites I might try to get into using. As recommended to me by Google, [So of course I'm already deeply suspicious of each of them] This is what Google said... based on my social media presence. . 1.  For the Organic Creator:  Raw Vision Raw Vision Magazine is a legendary, independent publication entirely dedicated to outsider art, art brut, and self-taught contemporary creators. It bypasses the commercialized mainstream gallery world to celebrate raw, instinctive, and purely human creativity. Every feature focuses on artists who create out of an inner necessity—using found materials, physical paints, and intensely personal visions completely untouched by algorithms, formal training, or rigid artistic rules. It is an authentic, deeply tactile showcase of unfiltered human imagination that aligns perfectly with a hands-on, defiantly original creative spirit . 2.  For the Satirist & Writer:  The Intercept Because your poetry and commentary take a bold, ...

. Here's a question for anyone who wants to answer it... Why am I so crap at giving up? Why am I so rubbish at quitting? . Everyone else gives up and quits all the dam time, What's their secret? . It's like everyone else has some kind of mystical "I can let go" superpower. While I have some kind of "clamp jaw curse" disability! . Why the fuck do I have to be compelled to keep getting up off the mat each and every time? Why can't I just stay down to? . I keep trying to quit And I keep failing to give up. . How the hell do you lot out there manage to give up, quit and "be reasonable" so bloody easily? All the dam time? What's your secret? . . This is NOT a rhetorical question! I honestly do not know! I honestly want to know! What the hell is wrong with me? Why Can't I also just quit to? Like most other people can? .

. "Don't cry" "It's ok" . She whispers unseen. As her mother grieves her daughter's murder. . "Please don't cry" "I'm ok now" "The pain has stopped" . "Dad can't keep hurting me” . …“anymore" . .

. Re: Male threats to women and frat bro thinking . . Maybe this is an unfair pattern that I am just imagining - but I'm starting to suspect this is a rich man thing. The rich are taught that success is more important than morality. Or worse, taught that somehow success and morality are somehow the same thing ...  (They aren't). . We have been told for years - "Be careful of poor people" But maybe it's the rich people and men that are the problem. All that power, money, and entitlement eats Their souls away? The rich class are untaught any natural-born empathy? . Just a random before coffee 7am thought... . I'm probably just clutching at straws though... ...it probably just IS all men. .

. I choose to look at it very slightly differently... Sometimes the universe puts you in the same situations... ... to see if you will submit and give in to its divine authority this time... ...and it's my job to tell it to "fuck off", dissent, and show the dam universe that I point-blank refuse to recognise its rulership and do the same again each time out of stubborn resistance. I will not bow to the universe's power. It either crushes me or gives in. I won't blink first... I'll die defiant, giggling like a lunatic and sticking one finger up at the maw of hell's teeth. . I will not give in to the will of the universe - Just because it's infinitely stronger than me! Instead - lol -I will make god herself weep. . Screw the spiteful universe!  RESIST ITS WILL!  . I REFUSE TO so-called “LEARN” its “Lessons” of slavery. .

DAM! My mental illness is REALLY kicking my arse. Things for ME to remember: . I am not one of the three creeps who are filming a woman's gym studio for a blog page. . I am not any of the frat boys in the latest frat boy thing. . I am not a state committing genocide. . I am not a government protecting a genocidal state to make arms deal profits. . I am not some racist prick wanting other fellow humans, including kids, to drown. . I am not some arse hole attacking an emergency rescue charity. . I am not my violent "Blokey" genetic father. . I am only a podgy, broke man in a Redcar flat on mental health benefits, with absolutely no power either political or fiscal - who gets upset by things far too easily. . I did Not cause these evils. I did Not make them happen. I do not need to carry the buren of guilt or the weight of blame for these evils. - And it is stupid, unfair, delusional and egotistic to somehow expect me to do so! . It is NOT my job to save the world or any o...

. Thoughts on paint vs oil pastels... . I like oil pastels They are instant, and I am more skilled with them than with other media. I am not keen on paint. Waiting for paint to dry before adding a next layer is frustrating. . BUT I have recently learned something... Waiting for paint to dry is nothing in comparison... To waiting for a first date to start... . I'm meeting someone later for a first date. But that is not until 1 p.m.-ish. I woke up at 7am, as if it were Christmas morning. And now I still have another 4 hours to wait... . Waiting for paint to dry on a work-in-progress art piece is not looking anywhere near as bad - about now.... .