!
.
.
I honestly do not know what “crypto homophobia” is.
.
Full disclosure
More honesty that you wanted
And more honesty than I am comfortable to give.
I will be open about my inspirations and intentions.
.
First things first though,
.
Am I homophobic?
The answer that might surprise you is,
Yes
Yes, I am,
.
BUT
.
Do I know homophobia is wrong?
The answer that might also surprise you is
Yes,
Yes, I do know it is horribly wrong!
It is wrong of me to be homophobic!!
.
At school, I was highly bigoted and bullied a gay lad.
.
All through my early teenage years, I would refuse to listen to bands like Culture Club, etc
.
Seeing two dude kissing was one of the grossest things in the world to me.
.
What changed?
.
One day while flipping through channels, as usual, I flipped through with disgust, an episode of “Will and Grace,”
.
As usual, I immediately went to flip past, what was to my mind, “A fucking Gross Gay thing”
.
This, one time, I was a little too slow,
This one time,
I accidentally heard one of the jokes
And…
.
Later it played on my mind,
“Why did I giggle”?
.
I will never remember what the funny line was,
.
I'm it is not as if the sky opened and a bright heavenly light gave me some sort of cinematic epiphany…
.
What it did do, though, was sow seeds of doubt in a mind that was full of hate.
.
Eventually, over a long time, I realise how wrong I was.
.
I realise the evil thinking I was perpetuating and looked at some of the wrongs I had done.
.
THE ORIGIN OF
A HOMOPHOBIC
ANTI HOMOPHOBIA
CAMPAIGNER!
. .
I honestly do not know what “crypto homophobia” is.
.
Full disclosure
More honesty that you wanted
And more honesty than I am comfortable to give.
(Because of the level of emotional honesty, I am tackling, please forgive the odd spelling or grammar error.)
. I will be open about my inspirations and intentions.
.
First things first though,
.
Am I homophobic?
The answer that might surprise you is,
Yes
Yes, I am,
.
BUT
.
Do I know homophobia is wrong?
The answer that might also surprise you is
Yes,
Yes, I do know it is horribly wrong!
It is wrong of me to be homophobic!!
.
At school, I was highly bigoted and bullied a gay lad.
.
All through my early teenage years, I would refuse to listen to bands like Culture Club, etc
.
Seeing two dude kissing was one of the grossest things in the world to me.
.
What changed?
.
One day while flipping through channels, as usual, I flipped through with disgust, an episode of “Will and Grace,”
.
As usual, I immediately went to flip past, what was to my mind, “A fucking Gross Gay thing”
.
This, one time, I was a little too slow,
This one time,
I accidentally heard one of the jokes
And…
.
I giggled.
. Later it played on my mind,
“Why did I giggle”?
.
I will never remember what the funny line was,
.
I'm it is not as if the sky opened and a bright heavenly light gave me some sort of cinematic epiphany…
.
What it did do, though, was sow seeds of doubt in a mind that was full of hate.
.
Eventually, over a long time, I realise how wrong I was.
.
I realise the evil thinking I was perpetuating and looked at some of the wrongs I had done.
.
Now feel compelled to try and make things right!
.
.
In the past,
.
The harder people preached at me about how wrong I was,
The tighter I held on to my anger and bigotry to defy them!
“How Dare they me what I can think and who I can hate!”
The stronger the cold winds blew against me, the harder I gripped my coat of bigotry.
.
But
.
Disarming humour got through where preaching could not.
The warm sun made me voluntarily take off my coat of bigotry,
The harder people preached at me about how wrong I was,
The tighter I held on to my anger and bigotry to defy them!
“How Dare they me what I can think and who I can hate!”
The stronger the cold winds blew against me, the harder I gripped my coat of bigotry.
.
But
.
Disarming humour got through where preaching could not.
The warm sun made me voluntarily take off my coat of bigotry,
(or at least try)
.
This is a lesson I have, taken to remember!
Humour can get by a bigot’s defences!
Preaching makes a bigot harden their stance!
.
Do I still find seeing two dudes kissing gross?
Yes!
.
But NOW I know that Me finding two dudes kissing gross is ONLY EVER “My problem”, It NEVER theirs,
.
The fault is ONLY in “My perceptions” It is NEVER in their actions!
.
So, I state again.
Am I still Homophobic?
Yes!
.
Do I still know Homophobia is wrong?
Yes!
.
Humour can get by a bigot’s defences!
Preaching makes a bigot harden their stance!
.
Do I still find seeing two dudes kissing gross?
Yes!
.
But NOW I know that Me finding two dudes kissing gross is ONLY EVER “My problem”, It NEVER theirs,
.
The fault is ONLY in “My perceptions” It is NEVER in their actions!
.
So, I state again.
Am I still Homophobic?
Yes!
.
Do I still know Homophobia is wrong?
Yes!
.
Am I a fellow, mere shitty, human-like everyone else?
Yes!
.
Am I still struggling to be a better person…?
Yes!
.
Maybe the above story does make me stink of “crypto homophobia”
Maybe it makes you hate and revile me.
Maybe you are right to hate and revile me.
I have certainly done things that deserve it.
.
Consider this though…
.
If we cannot believe in personal redemption for anyone,
.
If we can not believe in a potential for personal growth,
.
Then what the hell is the point of getting up in the morning?
.
Yes!
.
Am I still struggling to be a better person…?
Yes!
.
Maybe the above story does make me stink of “crypto homophobia”
(Whatever that is.)
. Maybe it makes you hate and revile me.
Maybe you are right to hate and revile me.
I have certainly done things that deserve it.
.
Consider this though…
.
If we cannot believe in personal redemption for anyone,
.
If we can not believe in a potential for personal growth,
.
Then what the hell is the point of getting up in the morning?
.
.
NOT ACTING
Homophobic
Is an instant decision!
Just stop doing it!
.
.
.
BUT BEING
Not Homophobic
Takes personal work!
.
!
!
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