I hate my own high sex drive

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While it is true, that when in a relationship,
I am untouchable, and totaly loyal.

That is not an enough ethical enough justigfication to "date".  
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All reashionships are like a ledger.
My black ledger loyalty and commitment to a woman is NOT worth all the rest of the red ledger baggage that Comes with it.
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The only moraly correct action for me to take is to push anyone that may be interested away.
I am too damaged.
I am broken goods.
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I am just on the edge of being able to finally accept my destiny and fate.
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I am not meant to be saved.
I am meant to help others. As a kind of none-religious monk.

I need to come to terms that the "romantic love" phase of my life is over,

And make life about other people and various social justice causes instead. 
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The only obstical to that higher purpose is my own sex drive.

I hate my own high sex drive.
And I want to get rid of it completely.
I am thinking.
No sex drive = Far less problems.
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I’d like to become a being of pure intellect
With no romantic or erotic thoughts
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Why the fuck do I even need any distracting erections for?
They are just depressing me!
Male hormones and sex drive reduce and supress intelligence! - And increase agression.

(I have a lot of inner male agression to handle) 
They make me too emotional, and they hold me back from my mental potential.
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Research ongoing...
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I may have to break the law to do it.
(As apparently some options are considered "Self-Harm".)
(Which to me just seems like a bullshit ‘male legacy cultural thing' not a real 'actual self-harm thing'.)

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AND
As I have suspected for a long time

That All Male Masculinity = Evil

So, It could also make me a better human being.

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