. This is a real stream of consciousness. Of me “talking myself down” in real time. As part of its brutal honesty I have not corrected any spellings or grammar in it. I choose to share it now because I feel it might help others. . In terms of certain writing sites, I have chosen the ‘Poetry Category’ Simple because that’s the nearest thing I can think of that something like this will fit into. . - . Another 4am waking up with bad dreams. . Another 4am feeling shaken and trying not to let those bad dreams make me hate my own gender to an irrational almost homicidal extent for the next few hours, . Probably not a good idea to doomscrole Facebook and see all the "men being evil" posts that confirm those dream driven prejudices. . I need to survive these moments and somehow Not become a psychopathic nut job and Not psychologicaly go down the mental health tubes. . Not rant weird shit that worries good people. . Maybe try and access some counter points of men not being monsters an...