. Scene: Ancient Egyptian underworld. . Anubis: "Behold, fearful little mortal" "For I, Anubis, will now judge you!" . Me: "Watcha mate?!" . Anubis: "Behold the scales of judgement" . Me: "They look nice" . Anubis: "And your heart will be weighed against this feather" "If your heart is too heavy," "- if it is heavier than the feather, you will be doomed!" . Me: "Pretty feather" . Anubis: "Behold your heart!" . Me: "Well, that pinched and stung a bit' . Anubis: "I will now lift your heart onto the scales..." (Sounds of straining) . Me: "Is there a problem?" . Anubis: "I can't lift it!" . Me: "Well, that does make sense" . Anubis: "But I have the strength of a god!' "This can not be!" . Me: "Oh well..." (Shrugging) . Anubis: "Clearly it will be heavie...

. THE FICITIONAL FANTASY ‘PIT FIGHTER’ WARRIOR, THE MAGIC POTION .. …AND MY TRUE REALITY. – By Ross E F Lombardi . . Imagine the following scenario (This scenario is a metaphor... ...but we will get to that later) . Imagine you were a pit fighter in some warped dystopian version of our world. Indentured, enslaved, forced to fight against your will. . Every three or four weeks... ...without warning... Ready or not... No matter how inconvenient... A van pulls up and takes you to the pit fight. . You are thrown into the pit to fight for your life. And if you win, you get to live for another three to four weeks. . And this repeats. You only have those three or four weeks to heal and recover for the next fight. They don't care if you are not ready It does not matter how badly injured you still are. Again, with no warning, every three to four weeks, you are picked up in the van and still forced to fight for your life. . And you keep winning! But the damage that never gets a chance to he...

. When someone calls me weird... . " Well done, Sherlock Holmes ... It's not as if it weren't completely obvious... What other genius perspectival insights have you got? That liquids are wet? That the sun is burny, burny hot, hot? That woman also fart? Well done, you, Mr Captain Obvious of the Obvious Platoon. Have a special observancy medal and a gold star for your super spotters superstar junior fridge chart... Aww, bless... You must feel so proud of your little self... ...Well done, you! "

. While I'm sure sending me death threats might feel good To be effective Yeh going to have to find a way to make me enjoy living First -If you want me to be scared of dying ! ...And I'm a lonely, unlovable, undateable over 50's DWP bedsit-land total loser with no future, terrified of surviving to spending each Christmas alone again, waking up with mental health issue nightmares most nights, disposable fat bloke. ! I am nothing ! Have nothing ! Worth nothing ! - So...? Make me enjoy living first...? If you can! HA! Can't be done...! . Good luck with that one. . Baiting violent people like you IS my suicide plan... ...Because I want My death to ruin Your life... .

I am against all Computer Utilised None-ethicaly Targetly Stolen, art .... or "C.U.N.T.S art" for short.

. Women have the divine goddess aspects, Mother, Maiden, Crone, . While Men only get to have the shitty demonic aspects of... . The "can't be arsed to do fuck all, at all, ever" so-called 'Father' . The Petulant Adult Whiny Toddler Tantrum Dangerously Violent Man-child. . and . The Dirty, "Leering Creeperly At Those They Shouldn't" , Gross Old Man . #men #Woman #DivineAspects #divine feminine #Maiden #Mother #Crone

. Men deal with... ...Being optional, ... Being unneeded, ...Being merely conditionally tolerated (at best), ... Being worthless, ...Being disposable. ...Being trash, ... Being crap, ...Being shit. . Either That OR Letting themselves mentally survive on becoming monstrous, dangerous, crazy incels that, in comparison, make a wild bear a much preferred and much safer option to deal with. . Either way, we are totally screwed But the first honest way only leads to self-harm and self-destruction While the deluded of the second path of the weaker type of mind leads to the harming of innocent people. . So, I will select option one. The honest path of will. I will always choose to only destroy, only myself, rather than ever let myself become some mere flimsy "thing" that would ever harm others. .

. I wouldn't call myself a god.  The idea of spiritual and natural hierarchies is a man-made false thing. There is no higher or lower planes of existence - just other planes of existence. There are no higher or lower forms of life - just different types of life. The creation and obsession with non-existent ladders is a delusional perspective that, quite honestly, has royally fucked up the entire world. I slug is not lower than a human, we are equals. An angel from another plane of existence is not higher than a human, we are equals. When mystic teachings lean into believing hierarchy bullshit, they are just leaning into tools that are no longer fit for purpose. I am not a god. I am the universe and the universe is me. As above, so below? - No! We live on a sphere. Up and down do not really exist in the larger universe. That is just localised gravity - not truth. BUT As to one side, -  then so to the other end - Yes! .

I WAS going to start "project eclipse" in August. Where I give up on everything and everyone and just spend the rest of my life, ignoring social issues, playing vid games and watching TV, waiting to die of old age.... Not aspiring to do anything or be anything. Just another DWP mental health vegetable waiting to rot, unwashed in my grubby, tapped up, couch. . No more writing . No more art . BUT There IS that "hail Mary pass" official tees valley poet thang... A last Very unlikely throw of the dice... ...to be anything other than just another skutter podgy old bloke in a bedsit... So, I will fill out that application tomorrow afternoon. Send it in. And THEN WHEN I DO get rejected for THAT. THEN I can do "project eclipse" and give up on everything and everyone. . THEN, after it is certain, for sure, that I am a true proper failure, I can isolate myself from the entire world, stop trying to go out and stop trying to have a life. Quit Grow old alone Then eve...

. A Woman is not being 'too difficult', She is just being as difficult as any man. . It is, as if, men are allowed to be 80% difficult, stubborn or ruthless. But women are only allowed to be 60% difficult, stubborn or ruthless. Instead of both being allowed to be 100% human. . A man is not being 'too emotional'. He is just being as emotional as any woman. It is, as if, women are allowed to be 60% emotional, gentle and caring or broken hearted. But men are only allowed to be 40% emotional, gentle and caring or broken hearted. Instead of both being allowed to be 100% human. . Maybe the world would be slightly better for everyone. If everyone was allowed to just be 100% themselves. Instead of some bullshit inherited list of gender expectations. . Well I am a man. But more importantly I am foremost 100% human. I Do feel stuff. And I am allowed to feel stuff as deeply and as long as I need to. . I do not owe anyone "more manly", "tougher" "less emot...

. 'IF' I ever call a woman a Bitch . Then I mean it as a compliment As for me: Nothing is more ugly than weakness . In the same vain I am happy to be called a "Son of a bitch" Because my mum Jackie was no wussy pushover. . I spent nearly 30 years romanticly grafted on to a wet noodle. Stuck attached to a woman with all the moral courage of a constantly frightened pigeon. To a - "but - what will the neighbours think?"  - snobby personality. To a lass that folds like a wet tissue paper bag rather than ever dare question authority or anyone in an official uniform. To a mentally of a tiny girl in a schoolyard constantly looking for the teachers approval. A sickening 'god slave' conformist that cares more about only appearing to do what is right - instead of ever risking to actually Do what is right. Would never call my ex wife (Susan Chapman of Redcar) a "Bitch". A "weak shitty little civil servant bootlicker" , yes. A "a mean ...