. .  Apparently…   Fake Facebook "Person" accounts are popping up...  Destroying people’s reputations by pretending to be them... . ALSO Apparently You CAN protect yourself from This soul crushing thing happening to you… by having a Facebook verified account... . But despite initial appearances, this IS NOT Facebook being money grabbing arseholes by trying to have people strongarmed into paying them a monthly subscription... It is NOT any form of protection racket And no one should expect a reasonable amount of account protection, as standard, for free... . (Despite all your usage data being for sale at 12$ a pop) (And Meta allowed to use all posted images to train their AI’s) (And all the content You may create for Mata for absolutely nothing) … Apparently…

. I have certain reservations  By  Ross r f lombardi . I am not convinced that the 'male lonlyness epidemic',  is a 'bad thing' I am not convinced the high male suicide rate, Is a 'bad thing' I am not entirely sure, at all, that, 'Life is sacred' . I look at this human world, It's ridiculous excuses to hate,  The stupid flag waving wars. Its sickening rapes and tortures. And it makes me sigh  It makes me have doubts Makes me want the whole  human race entirety extinct. . And I could do that... We can all do that... We can all kill our entire grotesque species off... We all have that divine power, - that ability, To destroy this horedious world. It's easy! . All any off us have to do... Is do nothing... As inaction is still a choice, Still an option, Still has consequences. . Just sit back, On your arse  Shove on a tv soap, Or some football. Crack a beer and a smoke,  And do fuck all, -  to stop it all. Simply let the world bloody burn! . Dona...

. My birthday present for my 54th birthday. By Ross e f Lombardi. . For my birthday I would like... ...as my present... ...a "reason" . A reason to go to the doctor, If I find a mysterious lump. . A reason to call an ambulance, If I get chest pains  . A reason to hand over my money and phone, If I get mugged. . A reason to keep out out jail. A reason to behave. . A reason to keep out the hospital. A reason to live. . A reason to keep out of the grave.  . For my birthday this year. I want a reason to fear. A reason to be scared of dying. A reason that makes life worthwhile. . For this birthday I want to value my life. To worry when I get a death threat. Instead of wishing to be killed. . For my birthday. I want the emotional pain to stop. To be sane and stable. And maybe, just maybe, even be "normal"! . If I am lying on the ground and bleeding, I want for my birthday to be able to say, "I can't die here" "I need to get home to 'them'...-...

! One of my TOP annoying things!? . Attractive people, of any gender, who lecture on shallowness! "Oh no!” “People only like me because of my looks" "They are so shallow"... Hold my salt tear filled beer! FFS! . I can ignore most normal bullshit outside intimidation. BUT I DO often run home from a night out, early, from looking in the wrong mirror! . If I ever managed to get to an ideal weight, Wore a ten-thousand-dollar suit And spent 3 hours to make myself look my absolute best? You’d still throw yourself out of a ten-story window, if you had to look that bad for over three days! . Even with Nanotech and a mass spectrometer, you can’t make a violin small enough for your dire trite crap! . If I had a gene with three wishes, It would still take the power of all three combined to look a quarter as good as you lot do… … on your scruffiest, grungiest day, sleep deprived, covered in vomit and a pants full of shit from a fourth day of food poisoning! . Look, I’m ...

. My sarcastic dark satire of how I feel rankings of various human groups are seen by everyone else.... 2026 Based solely on my own warped and bitter perspective after paying £30 to get into Blackpool Pleasure Beach... By my self... alone... With zero evidence to back this crap up. And written on the note pad of my phone, hence all the text mistakes. . RANK 1: The Highest Rank! Couples with kids. Kings and queens of the world. Pretty much, what we are all told, what we want to be. (Despite whether that is actually true or not) . Rank 2: The Second Highest Rank Couples with no kids. Whether it is the young couple destined to change their mind. Or the old couple proving to the world that 'you can love again' These are the dukes and duchess's of the human race ... . Rank 3: The Third Highest Rank Single women who are happy being single... Knights of the court... 'You Go Girl' You don't need no one! (Until you do ...) . Rank 4: The Plebs Single women who are rom...

! WARNING! Fascist does Not mean stupid,! . My own genetic father was a die hard nazi worshiper.  He was a thug,  a criminal  and a base wife beating bully. But He was also Very smart. He failed in the education system but he did teach himself fluent German from scratch from just books found at  bootsales and later German films. He later taught himself other languages. - Here is the dangerous assumption... Fascist are NOT all stupid! And the constant thicko mask too many of us keep believing is a real danger! They know human nature, advanced psychology ect. Many of them are also fantastic financial book cookers and skimmers,  Able to hide and move huge amounts of illicit money around.  And Their biggest, most dangerous weapon? Is making others constantly underestimate them! They are not stupid! They are evil, yes. They are violent, yes They are ruthless, also yes. But they are Not stupid! But underestimating then IS! . And falling for that 'stupidity facard...

. INTERNATIONAL MENS DAY  EVERY YEAR! NOV 19th . But seriously... LOL!  Why do I even need a mens day! I'm not disenfranchised purely based on my gender! I don't have less money because of my gender! I'm not killed because of my gender! . What's the fucks next!? International perfectly healthy day? International straight persons day?  International white person day? International billionaires day? International 'I have less problems than you' day??! . God dam! International mens day is such bullshit! - THAT is why hardly anyone cares about it. Because it doesn't matter! We don't need it! It's stupidly on a stick! .

Men don't define women Women don't define women Men don't define men Women don't define men No one defines Anyone. . As soon as you look to others to define who you are... ...you loose who you are! . Only You should define You! . And your only duty  (without harming or imposing your will on others)  Is to be YOU as Hard as You can!  . You are only ever your actual deeds. You are only what you really Do. Not what you or others merely say you are or call you.  . Actions are everything. Known or unknown  Witnessed or in private. Your deeds, seen or unseen  define you  Mere words and labels mean nothing. You can't control the world But you can choose your own actions.  It's better to burn alive free and screaming - - than submit to others as their puppet.  . No one, no being, no gang, no government, no 'rag on a stick',  is worthy of You bowing or kneeling to! . Be your own deity. Worshiping who You are! So you can better love the entire wor...

. Creativity is a gift . It was never meant to make money It is bestowed upon some  to help others .

. Seven. By Ross e f Lombardi . 60 seconds in "I don't really want to talk." "I'm ok" "I don't want to talk about it" "Honestly" (I am not ok) . Two moments on "I'll just cover the basics." "But not burden you." "As I don't matter." "I never did matter... ...I never could matter.... ... and matter, I never will." . Three and uncorking. "This!" "THIS!" And "This!" I'm Spewing Words "That!" "THAT!" And "that!" For I am 'This' needy, attention greedy, over-bearing, over-sharing twat. . Halfway between heaven and hell now and still falling. Self-hate speech calling. Tearless crying. Dried eyed yet bawling. . Five up. Ok I'm breathing calmer now. I feel embarrassed. But you comfort me with constant "oks, "it's fine" ...and despite myself I feel 'valued'. I hate myself A bit less now. Thanks...

! YES, Men ARE trash! <shrug> - Just look at the violent crime stats in allmost every country! - The Maths Proves that we as a gender, Are Trash! . Data from sources like the UNODC Global Study on Homicide and U.S. FBI Uniform Crime Reports confirm men perpetrate 80-95% of violent offenses worldwide, including 88% of robberies and 99% of rapes. .

Trying out a new recipe idea on wendsday. I'm taking a normal soda bread recipe But replacing some of the flour with ground almonds Useing strong wholemeal in the rest of the flour And adding raisins and dry salted peanuts to the mix . I might also make the dough into eight smaller buns instead of four And put either jam or crunchy peanut butter as a filling in the centre. . The idea is to create a sort of "travel bite" that I can nibble while sketching all day. Something healthier and more filling than a flapjack that won't fall apart and has enough healthy calories to keep me going a whole day without having to use any pricey shops. . It doesn't have to taste all that good It just has be edible enough and save me money while I'm out all day sketching And not make a mess in my sketch bag by falling apart when knocked around during walking. I'm aiming for structural integrity and nutrition over taste. A sort of cheap all weather travel ration.

  . TO BE CRYSTAL CLEAR: The Male Loneliness Epidemic Is MENs FAULT for acting like evil arseholes Not Woman’s fault for not wanting to be threatened, beaten and killed! . If you want to be angry at anyone about it Be angry at all the other men that caused your problem! . .

Ok It turns out that Vanity Seizing by clothes manufactures IS A THING! And for bullshit reasons it does NOT break any consumer laws So there is me being so proud of myself getting my waste measure down and bragging Only to find out that I have not actually achieved anything Because fucking big money is allowed to lie to us all, again! I hate this modern world SO much! Big Business are all just total arse holes . . FUCK! That means that If I ignore clothes sizes And go by the NHS tape measure guide I am actually still at a 48” waste!. No Wonder I can’t get a date! I’ll never get thin enough to be good looking! It can Not be done! SHIT! I’m stuck being fucking ugly forever! This changes everything! What the hell am I supposed to do now!?! . . "A 48-inch waist exceeds NICE health recommendations—aiming for less than half one's height"  Well as soon As my ugly arse can die from heart disease and diebetes the better  No point being this ugly and still breathing .

. A truly broken heart is absolutely devastating . So, ...If you want revenge then your heart was never truly broken. If you want revenge then you never really loved them at all. . For if your heart is truly broken. Survival is already more than hard enough... . So do that Just try and survive. .

. Them: "Ross, Why are do you unercharge for your art?" "Why is your stuff so cheap?" . Me: "Spite" "It is why I sell my art for stupid cheap prices now." "some of them taking days of work" "But as I cant win" "Ill try and tank the local art markets value" .

. If people look at the things I say about my ex - and mistake it for misogyny - it's not - This is not misogyny because I am a man hurt by a woman I hate the individual - Not the gender. This has nothing to do with me being 'a man' or her 'a woman' THIS level of self harming spite is my families specialty from my moms side. This is: "don't piss off a member of the fortune family" This is Not me acting like a:   "macho arse hole bloke" This is me being the child of Miss Jackie Fortune I'd be just as self destructive, Petty, and spiteful to Anyone to hurt me this much. I don't have to win Winning never matters My mums family side taught me, "loose on purpose if you must - as long as it hurts 'em as much as you can." . Me being 'like this' is a whole family trait, not a gender one! . I  am willing to die without defending myself IF it sends my attacker to prison and ruins their life. . I will hapily loose both m...

. This is a real stream of consciousness. Of me “talking myself down” in real time. As part of its brutal honesty I have not corrected any spellings or grammar in it. I choose to share it now because I feel it might help others. . In terms of certain writing sites, I have chosen the ‘Poetry Category’ Simple because that’s the nearest thing I can think of that something like this will fit into. . - . Another 4am waking up with bad dreams. . Another 4am feeling shaken and trying not to let those bad dreams make me hate my own gender to an irrational almost homicidal extent for the next few hours, . Probably not a good idea to doomscrole Facebook and see all the "men being evil" posts that confirm those dream driven prejudices. . I need to survive these moments and somehow Not become a psychopathic nut job and Not psychologicaly go down the mental health tubes. . Not rant weird shit that worries good people. . Maybe try and access some counter points of men not being monsters an...

Ten Questions By Ross e f Lombardi ? Who am I dieting for? ? Who am I exercising for? ? Who am losing weight for? ? Who am I brushing my teeth for? ? Who am I trying to look less ugly for? ? Who should I bother queuing for a medical check up, for? ? If it is not for me? Not for myself? Because I don't like 'that person'! The person I am stuck as! So then who? And Why? ?

. MEN WHO ARE JUST OLD CHILDREN. BY Ross E F Lombardi . There is nothing sader than a "notch on the bedpost" man Limping from one ego fix to to another, Like a crack addict begging for a quid . To them women are conquests, prizes, sport, trophy's, instead of human beings. Allways wanting to steal another man's toy. . No amount of fucks will ever really satisfy them. They will never really know true happiness They will always be running towards the next thing. Always getting used and always useing others. . They can say all the sweetest right words. The most beautiful poetry and have the most smouldering gaze But they will never really FEEL. . These are Not the sort of men that would stay with a terminaly ill wife till the end and find it hard to move on. . These are the sort of men that are unfaithful just because their wife's body changes a bit. . They care more about how the woman on their arm looks to their freinds and ex's Instead of how he feels about her...

. Them: "You need to..." . Me: "You can just stop your trite weak arse dime store guru shit right there!" "Because IF ‘You’ were stuck being anything like ‘Me’," “And failed as much as ‘I’ have,” "Then ‘You’ wouldn’t like ‘Your’ crappy ‘Self’ either" “So,” “Fuck Off!” .

. My ban from certain local REDCAR venue's. . There are places that I can't go. (Shrug) I'm banned from those venues. . The Tees Valley Arts Palace hub . The Gypsy Rover . The other yellow corner one on station road that I can't remember the name of at the moment. . Probably the Pig 'N Whistle (although I haven't actually checked) . And that geek store, also on station road. . If you want to know why, then ask someone there. I'm proud of my actions. I have nothing to be ashamed of. It just is - what it is. That's all. . I back down for nobody. Not to a thug wielding a metal weapon, not to the crown (I am not patriotic) not to god wielding hell, and not to a thug wielding access to their venue. . Sure it hurts. But all anger helps keep the dangerous depression at bay. . Anger is the all natural, less side effects, self meditation that keeps me alive. Without any pain to keep me going, I'd be dead. . Without the pain I'd have nothing to paint wit...

. "I would never date an ex-porn star" he says, . Well Before I was married I was a unpleasant person who enjoyed hurting people Now I try to refuse to harm anyone My past self now disgusts me People have pasts People change Life is short You are far from perfect yourself So, If you fall in love with someone and you find out they were once a sex worker Or a were once a brutal gangland thug Man-up or woman-up - and Get over it . Ok Maybe NOT if they were once a USA ICE Agent Because some shit is still fucking unforgivable! .

Is no one interested in the personality inside anymore? Age, up, down or sideways is not an entire adult person. Their past, good, bad or dull, - porn star, nun or accountant, Is Not an entire person. “Looks” Are not an entire person. - No matter “hot” someone at first is… …After the first three months you kinda stop noticing as much and the important things like shared values, interest and matching energies take over. …After the first three years you can start adding shared memories to that mix. …Eventually the amount quality time spent together should be all the ‘make up’ you should ever need! And at that point your love for each other should make you both seem “hot” to one another instead.

. Misandry Vs Misogyny . Misandry, is my mum …being forever wary of men as she tries to move on and while looking after a traumatised child. . While Misogyny is what caused my mum to have horrible things happen to her …in front of her child. . . The “Patriarchy” is simply trying to keep men and woman in love . Men in love with violence And Women in love with violent men . From films of mighty costumed heroes beating down a ‘bad guy’ made for kids To “heroic imagery” on a romantic book cover aimed at lonely women Because war and reconstruction make money Peace does not The “Patriarchy” is designed to control the whole human race The “Patriarchy” is a business model . “Dance little puppets!” “Dance!” “Fight for me” “Hate for me” “Kill for me” “Die for me” “Make me powerful” “Make me rich” .

. I can make some truly amazing dishes I can make stuff that could make some restaurants weep. From the most basic of ingredients. . BUT Despite my ability to easily do THAT Sometimes All I want It a large bowl of cheap white spaghetti Covered on loads of melted salted butter. . No skill No knowledge needed (but Never the ‘easy cook’ crap – there are still some standards) . . If there is one thing I learned from having a sexless marriage... (But you love her too much to ever be unfaithful) - When you can’t get a romantic hug in real life You can always get a “hug n’ a bowl”! . .

Like a car in a parking space. Each and Every day I feel I need to "validate my parking" in this life. If I can "validate my parking " by helping someone, anyone, in some smallest of ways... ... Then I don't feel a need to "vacate this parking spot" that night when I look at the ceiling and feel despair. Because I made some tiny difference that "validated my parking space." For that single day, Only. ...- for just One More Day... .

! Men as protectors? Who men protecting woman from? Exactly? Because IF your Only answer is ‘other men’ ! And IF you cannot see how batshit insane that problem is... How deeply flawed that logic is? How crazy that sounds? ? ...THEN I am Not smart enough to explain it to you. ! . A Man and a Woman hug each other lovingly. . Her: “I feel so safe in your arms” . Him “You should not need my arms to feel safe” “You whole world should feel safe anyway” . Her: <pushing away and punching his arm playfully> “Shut up!” “I’m trying to be nice here” . <There is a pause as she returns to hugging him.> . Her: “Well then” She whispers… “How do you feel in my arms?” . Him: “Like a real person” “Validated” “Whole again” “You Feel like home” “A Home I never knew I was homesick for” . Her: “You should not need my arms to feel that way” “You should feel real, valid and human anyway” . <They hug each other tighter> . Him: <silently thinking> ‘ i wish i could believe that ’ . . She h...