Being "Reasonable" By Ross E F Lombardi.

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Being "Reasonable"
By Ross E F Lombardi.
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When I was 7 I questioned the homophobia of my faith
"Be reasonable", They Said
"We are trying to save souls"
"Think of the better good!"
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When I was 14 I questioned the racism of the Bradford arm of my family.
"Be reasonable", They Said
"We are trying to save our county"
"Think of the greater good!"
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When I was 21 I questioned the ethics of my media degree.
"Be reasonable", They Said
"We are trying to save your future"
"Think of your own potential!"
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When I was 28 I questioned the values, of my then-wife.
"Be reasonable", She Said.
"I am trying to save you from embarrassing yourself"
"Keep your head down and do not make such a fuss!"
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When I was 35 I kept questioning.
"Be reasonable", my mind Said.
"This world, These people, These strangers,"
"Are not worth the hassle"
"Let someone else make a difference"
"You are too weak to piss against the stormy rain"
"No one will notice"
"No one will care"
"No difference will be made"
"You will only suffer for nothing"
"Be reasonable",
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When I was 42 I questioned the values of the entire world.
"Be reasonable", The thugs shouted.
"Stay the fuck down and keep your nose out!"
"If you know what's good for you,"
"And your family"
"You shitty woke snowflake!"
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When I became 49 I STILL questioned and doubted and worried.
"Be reasonable", They Said.
"I am trying to teach you to succeed"
"Bend to us or we simply cannot be friends with you."
"Your views get in the way of our plans and ambitions"
"Do you want to get somewhere? Or not?"
"Because if not, then stop wasting our time!"
"Don't make us crush you!"
"Be reasonable"
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So, Apparently, All this time.
Church, State, Crowd Opinion, Criminals, Public Organizations, Private Organizations, Everyone else is automatically right
“It is all for the better, greater, larger good”
“I Was always automatically wrong this entire time"
"The Homophobia is still right"
"The Racism is still right"
"Keeping my head down and not looking is still ok"
"The need to succeed and the expense of others is wise"
"Everyone is, was and will always be right!"
Except me.
Apparently,
I will always be wrong.
“I need to get down and keep down”
“I need to know my place”
“I should always assume that I am wrong!”
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How dare I assume I am right?
How dare I assume that others are wrong?
I should Always and Forever assume everyone is right apart from little me.
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I Need To Be Reasonable!
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NO!
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Now I am over 50, And still being unreasonable,
I would rather trust my gut instincts and make a mistake.
I’d rather lose friends and family rather than follow,
I would rather fail than thrive,
I will snap, and break instead of compromise.
I'd rather die than survive,
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I have seen what reasonable people do,
And I am not impressed.
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I am no longer willing to bend.
I will not "be reasonable"
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