? ARE YOU TIGGERED? ? LOL!  - Allways!  - About everything  - That is how dangerous mental illness works!  - I go to bed suicidally depressed  - and I wake up each morning homicidally enraged!  - There is no kudos or any victory in ripping a wet tissue paper any more than there is any honourable victory in triggering me!  - HELL!  LOL!  I get triggered over the peeling of an orange or over wiping my own ass!  - Either as a victim or perpetrator I am a murder waiting to happen. - (let's hope it is as a victim) - -  Just Thank goodness I live in the UK with gun control laws!  - If I lived in the USA a load of people would have died by now!  (People like me are why USA gun laws are stupid!) . . Seriously!  I am so utterly disposable with absolutely no value, it has become hilarious!  It actually makes me giggle now!  For In a world full of losers!  - No one is more worthless and less deserving of life tha...

. As told to me by someone I know: But you have probably never met him. . . "I am just a harmless flabby, soft-spoken 50-year-old! Honest! I am no threat to anyone! - I only do 5 sit-ups a day. - And that can take up to 10 minutes on a good day!" . . I do them very slowly. . It takes me ages to do them! And I am very tired and short of breath afterwards! . I do them very slowly. . With a 5 Lb weight parallel to my head in each hand. Elbows kept at 90 degrees and straight forward at the shoulders, So they are held out in front of me. . While standing up, Feet at shoulder width, knees bent just enough to feel it slightly, . Soon I might try ten sit-ups a day. But only 5 of each, Stood on just one of my legs each time. The other leg pulled up behind me, so the knee is pointed straight down. . Again very, Very, VERY slowly, As slow as I can, Holding midway at times, To feel every little bit of resistance. Trying to spend 2 minutes on each sit-up. . Then I move on to all the other...

! Ewwww god?  YUCK! <lower case 'g' on purpose out of intentional disrespect>  god can kiss my fat hairy smelly ass!  god is evil  - he is just as evil as saten  <lower case 's' on purpose out of intentional disrespect>  but with a better PR department. . Someone needs to tell god to "fuck off!" I don't mean atheist I mean believers! Both god and satan! Both of you "FUCK OFF!" and leave us mortals the hell alone! . .

. Sometimes people say you're a bad person so they don't feel guilty about the things they did to you. ...And sometimes they are right ...And sometimes they learn that you can take all the hits and just shrug them off. You can ignore the buzzing of irritating insects You are disposable and don't really care what happens to you. You know you are not good and that you deserve it. . Sometimes people say you're a bad person so they don't feel guilty about the things they did to you. ...And sometimes they are right ...And sometimes they learn that you do NOT mess with those you see as 'under your protection' You will not ignore a threat to those who are 'under your protection' You can put your real self 'in a box' at the back of your mind and coldly do 'terrible things' You know you are not good and can never be a good person Because a 'good' person cannot do such 'terrible things' . Sometimes people say you're a bad pe...

. . It’s so unfunny how, “You have the power to change” “It's Your responsibility to change, work to improve yourself” & “Accept and love Yourself as You are” …are All so instantly and tritely interchangeable. By those seeking an empty cheap pseudo-wisdom ego thrill At Your expense. Such little words are so very easy to spew out But then again, <shrug> Bullshitting others in need to feel more ‘valid’ always was… .

. In case anyone was wondering why I am not leaving the flat as much, lately. I don't get embarrassed the way others do and I feel I have nothing to lose, so I'll just be brutally honest - However bad it looks. You might feel my reasons are silly or immature, but they are real to me. . Basically For me, Trying for for any success, just for myself is not enough If I am not part of a couple, then I think "Why bother." I have been single (after 30 years marriage) for 18 months or more now. After this long, I am starting to give up. And the more I give up on being loved The less I want to leave the flat . I find social situations too far stressful - for so little chance of meeting anyone 'special', ever. . Most people think this is a silly outlook. And whether that is true or not - it is who I am. . I am not meant or built for "single life" It does not make me feel "free" It just makes me feel like an incomplete half a person. After I have d...

I hope that I do not wake up tomorrow morning.

. - The next stage of "Religion" will NOT be organized OR have social media pages, leaders or structures that would be recognized as such, of ANY kind. - Including these ones set before you NOW. - DO NOT FOLLOW ANYONE! - DONATE NOTHING (that is not for those in need!) - And ALWAYS suspect everyone but yourself of being a fake prophet for profit! - YOU ARE YOUR OWN CHURCH! YOUR OWN TEACHER, AND YOUR OWN SACRED GROUND! - NO ONE ELSE! . . ...take a hint and take the harder, more difficult path instead!  - Feeling lost, alone and in chaos is a good start. -  Not a bad thing!  - Be "THE HERMIT", alone and lost with only your inner lantern for guidance  - And do not follow any external "HYROPHANT!" . There are no higher perceptions or lower perceptions - Just perceptions There are no higher planes of existence or lower planes of existence - Just planes of existence There is no higher self or Lower self - Just self. There is no higher and lower - There is no gr...

 ! Do NOT bother "Stealing" other people's romantic partners DO NOT BE A SUCH DUMB ASS! If they were Not faithful to them! THEN THEY WILL NOT BE FAITHFUL TO YOU! You are NOT some magical exception! Have some common sense! Cheaters CHEAT! You are far better off alone! . - "Man" "Woman" or "Other" / "Gay" "Straight" or "other" - Any cheater is 4X times more likely to cheat again than any non-cheater! This is not a Gender or Sexuality thing! It is a personal integrity and willpower thing! And either you have those things - or you don't!  If they don't! DUMP THEM! DUMP THEM NOW! Do Not look back! Never look back! !

To cut a long story short… NOT RECOMMENDED!

. WHAT DO WOMEN WANT? The answer is frustratingly simple No man can speak for all men. And no woman can speak for all women. . AND MOST CERTAINLY NO MAN CAN SPEAK FOR ALL WOMEN... (or vice versa)  . There is no magical "One thing" Everyone is a unique individual with their own tastes and rules. No one is a mere mass-produced labelled product. There is no one thing that applies to nearly half the entire human race. And to think that there is, or could be, - is just dumb ass! . But pretending to have an answer, Can make a couple of bucks sometimes...

. THEY DO NOT LIVE HERE! By Ross E F Lombardi. . "This Cat?" "This Cat is not ours" "This Cat does not really live here..." "They just visit!" "Yes!" "We do open the door for them" "Yes" "He does like his own spot to sleep on" "Yes" "We do put a cushion on that spot to keep things tidy" "Yes" "We feed them" "Yes," "We Did get them their own bowl to save us using the human dishes" "Yes" "We did do the same for their water, for common sense hygiene reasons" "Well, Yes," "We did start getting a tiny bit of their own food," "We were shopping anyway and the food was kinda just there, so why not?" "Ok, Yes," "They did not like that food so now we get him the slightly nicer special food" "Well, Of course.." "They have a few cheap toys!" "It was the anniversary ...

. How can I win?  I have 3 options A ) and B ) and C ) . How can I win? I have 3 options A ) and B ) and C ) - But really only 2 options A ) and B ) And both of those are inadequate and flawed. I can not see an option D ) yet... . IF... . A ) ...I isolate myself then the crushing loneliness makes me more and more sleazy as my sex drive hormones poison and corrupt my own perceptions and brain. . BUT IF... . B ) ...I leave the flat and try and be part of the world. My already slightly corrupted, hormone-damaged personality and a last hopeful spark in me, Has far more opportunity to make some poor lass accidentally uncomfortable. - As I imagine shit that is not there. . While option... . C ) Ripping my own balls off is NOT an option! (And apparently ripping my own balls off - although proactive, also counts as self-harm and is therefore frowned upon by society.) . So? <Shrug> How can I win? I can't do both! I can't NOT be in two situations at once, both NOT in the flat AND N...

! So,   YES!   "THE BOYS" IS A SPOOF SATIRE!   !  How the hell is anyone so dense - So absolutely fucking stupid beyond belief that the name "Homelander" was NOT already a major fucking clue! - Even BEFORE the early scene where he blows up a plane with a child on board! - DAM! - HOW FUCKING STUPID ARE YOU! - Hey <shrug> If you hate intellectualism, fair enough that's your personal choice and call! - I won't judge you for that - That's your right to freedom of individual choice. But this is not rocket science here! This is very basic stuff that any idiot to immediately get! - If you did not see this straight away, then you do not have enough common sense to drive a motorized vehicle and should have your license confiscated! And maybe you should have someone else be in charge of wiping your arse while you're at it! Because if this shit was not obvious to YOU? - From episode one? Then you clearly need special headgear and to be supervised by a med...

. So, I am putting out an EP of 3 acapella songs. (That means just my singing voice and no music) It will be On All of the main music streaming services, including Spotify and Amazon Music. It will be available to stream and hear sometime after the next 48 hours. Good, bad, or terrible Either way <shrug> It is just a thing I am doing... . .

. Social Anxiety (My version) I am the small dark dude, faking a smile in the darkness. For me, - It is like this. Everything is too bright, too intense. Everyone around becomes too real and too fake at the same time. Then the hypervigilance kicks in. You try in vain to take in every little, small detail, all at once, and of course, it becomes overwhelming. Then the stupidest part happens You suddenly feel responsible for everyone's safety and go on some weird version of guard duty. (Which is idiotic because I am a just flabby 50-year-old) The best I can do is just get lost in the music and dance to distract myself Or let panic hit and head home to hide as quickly as possible. No one realises how hard it is to leave the flat, and then keep me out, sometimes. It is totally mental! It does not have to make sense, This is a mental illness. . . . .

. IF THE UK MOVED TO A USA HEALTH CARE SYSTEM? . I'd simply not get any insurance and let myself die instead. I'm not even worth the cost of a single pint of cheap larger a month. - Let alone a few hundred quid a month! AND I don't enjoy living anyway... So, "Fuck 'em!" If I had to pay or die? Then I choose death! .

. Social media be like... . Buy! Accept Yourself Buy! Change Yourself Buy! Accept You Buy! Change You Buy! Accept Buy! Change Buy! Accept/Change/Buy Spend some fucking money! .

. Person 1: "Do you have any leftover bacon?" . Me: "What the hell is 'leftover' bacon?" . Person 1: "You know, Bacon that is 'leftover'- '" . Me: "What!?" . Person 1: "What? What part of That, Don't You understand?" . Me: "I understand the individual words, but you have put them in some weird ass nonsense order!" "Are you trying out some new weirdo surreal poetry?" "Is this some kind of joke I am not smart enough to understand?" "Is this a new street slang that I am too old and not cool about to know?" "Are you having a stroke?!" . Person 1: "Let us try This, a bit at a time..." "I will go slowly..." . Me: "Ok" . Person 1: "Do you? Ross Lombardi?" . Me "Ok, I am with you so far" . Person 1: "Have any bacon" . Me: "Got it, keep going" . Person 1: "That is..." . Me: "Ok so far......