.
If my ex texted me?
"I'm sure you still think about me every night"
I would reply,
-
Yeah,
I do
- You dumbed me after 30 years
- (shrug) so, of course I do
- But NOT in a good way...
...
...each night before bed,
like a prayer to something dark inside of me,
I repeat
"I hate, Susan",
"I hate Susan",
"I hate Susan", three times.
- Then I repeat the same every morning, again three times.
.
I would never do anything to harm her
BUT
I would ALSO Never do anything to help her!
Whether it is a heart attack in the park
Or Attempted kidnap and assault on the street,
My phone stays in my pocket and I just keep walking.
I refuse to help her - Ever!
.
I fantasise and dream of getting an opportunity of NOT helping her - When she most desperately needs it!
‘Malicious Callousness’ Is all she will ever get from me now.
She wanted a world without me – so, that exactly is what she now gets! A world without me in it to ever aid her!
I will NEVER help her!
.
.
(Even if it makes my kids hate me, if that happens – I choose to pay that price!)
If my ex texted me?
"I'm sure you still think about me every night"
I would reply,
-
Yeah,
I do
- You dumbed me after 30 years
- (shrug) so, of course I do
- But NOT in a good way...
...
...each night before bed,
like a prayer to something dark inside of me,
I repeat
"I hate, Susan",
"I hate Susan",
"I hate Susan", three times.
- Then I repeat the same every morning, again three times.
.
I would never do anything to harm her
BUT
I would ALSO Never do anything to help her!
Whether it is a heart attack in the park
Or Attempted kidnap and assault on the street,
My phone stays in my pocket and I just keep walking.
I refuse to help her - Ever!
.
I fantasise and dream of getting an opportunity of NOT helping her - When she most desperately needs it!
‘Malicious Callousness’ Is all she will ever get from me now.
She wanted a world without me – so, that exactly is what she now gets! A world without me in it to ever aid her!
I will NEVER help her!
.
.
(Even if it makes my kids hate me, if that happens – I choose to pay that price!)
.
SHE IS THE REASON
THAT I DO NOT FEAR DEATH
BECAUSE I DO NOT ENJOY LIFE!
.
THE ONE THING SHE LEFT ME IN THE DIVORCE
WAS A DEATH WISH!
WAS A DEATH WISH!
So when I make a stand and upset dangerous people - She is the reason I do not care if I am killed!
SHE IS THE REASON THAT I WANT TO DIE!
.
And WHEN (not IF) I get killed...
- Just keep Her, The hell away from My funeral!
.
.

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