DAM!
My mental illness is REALLY kicking my arse.
Things for ME to remember:
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I am not one of the three creeps who are filming a woman's gym studio for a blog page.
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I am not any of the frat boys in the latest frat boy thing.
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I am not a state committing genocide.
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I am not a government protecting a genocidal state to make arms deal profits.
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I am not some racist prick wanting other fellow humans, including kids, to drown.
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I am not some arse hole attacking an emergency rescue charity.
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I am not my violent "Blokey" genetic father.
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I am only a podgy, broke man in a Redcar flat on mental health benefits, with absolutely no power either political or fiscal - who gets upset by things far too easily.
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I did Not cause these evils.
I did Not make them happen.
I do not need to carry the buren of guilt or the weight of blame for these evils.
- And it is stupid, unfair, delusional and egotistic to somehow expect me to do so!
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It is NOT my job to save the world or any of the people in it,
When I can barely motivate myself to brush my teeth some days out of crippiling depression.
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I am NOT a bad person who deserves to die horribly - for not being able to stop what entire police forces, governments, the UN, and the rest of the whole human race, with far more power and money than me, could not achieve stopping yet.
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"I did not start the fire"
"It's been burning since the world was turning."
"No, I didn't light it"
"Although I try to fight it"
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I need to cut myself some slack.
And stop hating myself for other people's evil and crimes.
I am NOT them!
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