We Are Going To Lose.

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I wanted to reveal one of the most common reasons for my most dangerous depressions.
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I dislike the far right.
I support refugees and gay rights etc.
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I'm committed to defending the persecuted worldwide, at any and all cost.
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Most people know this about me already.
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But this is the new bit.
Because I am handicapped with a huge, weirdly put-together brain.
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I can see the patterns.
I can see all the most likely outcomes.
The huge amounts of money involved.
The power and influence behind it all.
And The KEY part!
The inevitable upcoming environmental collapse that is the real unacknowledged cause behind it all.
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And despite my passion and commitment towards all that I see as good, I am almost certain of one thing.
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We.
The left.
The empathetic.
The caring.
The merciful.
We Are Going To Lose.
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I don't realistically see how we can possibly win.
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When the crops fail on mass.
When the food stops.
I can see current members of the left, good people, almost instantly switch sides to fascism as soon as their own children miss a third meal in a row.
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I, however, will never change sides.
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I am on the morally, ethically correct side.
But I am also on the losing side.
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And my depression almost destroys me at times with this curse of insight.
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Because why the hell would I ever want to survive long enough to see the first concentration camps built on English soil? Manned by British uniforms? Under a UK flag?
And then suffer hearing once-good people cheering it?
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I want to be murdered before having to witness that shame.
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